This is quite possibly the most personal blog I’ve ever written and to be honest, I’ve been very much on the fence about writing it.
Because all you keep hearing from marketing experts is to be personal but, that’s not always easy. Especially when life takes unexpected turns in a not so fabulous direction. How much of this do you share, if any at all? So for months I decided to not share anything about it at all. So this is kinda scary, but here goes!
Last year, my life changed drastically. After 11 years relationship and 9 years of marriage, my husband walked out on our marriage to start a new life on the other side of the world. With someone else.
Finding out you’ve been cheated on is devastating.
Shooting weddings when all this was happening, was the hardest thing ever.
And I fell into a big, black hole that swallowed me whole.
I didn’t feel like getting out of bed in the mornings, I wanted to hide underneath the covers. But luckily, I have two darling dogs who needed me. They needed to be fed, they needed attention and they needed to go for walks. They were my reason to drag myself out of bed and continue life.
They were my rocks and my constant companions. Seeing them be happy and have fun, gave me a bit of life glimmer again too.
But apart from those two, I didn’t feel I really had much left to live for. That sounds so dramatic, but it’s true. That’s how dark that hole was that had swallowed me.
I then had a choice: do I start to go to therapy or do I get involved with horses again (I rode for 10 years growing up and have always been a horsey girl)? I chose the latter and it’s been the best decision I could have made.
Because horses mirror you, they scan you in seconds and know exactly what’s happening with you. They are the best therapists.
Nothing mends a broken heart like being on the back of a horse. It’s the honest truth.
Thanks to these incredible creatures I got my love for life back. I made new friends whom I value so greatly. I had experiences that have changed my life forever. And whenever I post a photo of me and a horse on my social media, the response is always the same: “you shine when you’re around horses”. And that’s true, they lit up the light in my eyes again. They make me shine.
10 years of therapy couldn’t have done what these past few months with horses have done for me.
It’s the reason I started with equine photography recently. Because I have SO much love for horses (and dogs) and I’m SO thankful to them for what they’ve done for me. I KNOW the bond you can have with your horse and/or dog and nothing brings me more joy than to capture these gorgeous animals who do SO much for us in our every day life.
I’m thankful. Thankful to my amazing dogs, the horses who’ve helped me, my parents, friends who’ve stuck by me, friends I’ve reconnected with, the new friends I’ve made and my White Stallion family. There is light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how dark that tunnel is. If you’re in a dark hole right now, hold on, ask for help, there will be light again…